Sunday, December 18, 2016

Seasons Bleatings - 2016

Oh, 2016, you bastard. What can I say? It was like a year-long battle with acid reflux disease. It was a year that ignited a national anxiety disorder and its symptomatic addiction to cable news. The left went left and the right fell down a rabbit hole. As the nation sat riveted, Donald Trump faced a woman on a debate stage and said, "Look at that face. Would anyone vote for that?" It was vintage 2016. A new normal is born.

What's a weak-kneed liberal to do? Why, suck down a fistful of antacids, of course, and tend to the dog. One thing you can count on: the dog will need to go out. Never mind that the craniums on cable news explode every hour like Yellowstone geysers. Never mind that riding on planet Earth in 2016 has seemed like passage on the Titanic. But we can take heart: there's always the here and now, a drifted driveway to clear, and a dog scratching at the door.

Not just any dog. Omar, the dog. We have temporary custody of Omar while his owner, our Elizabeth, is situating herself in drought-stricken California. We love him. Sure, we might have to change the vacuum bags a bit more often, but our bird feeders are safe from marauding squirrels. He ate one not long ago. A squirrel, I mean. The whole thing, from nostril hole to the tip of its tail. It was during one of those televised Trump rallies. And it was sickening. The rally, I mean. The whole thing.

Elizabeth lives in Hollywood, just two blocks from the Walk of Fame. She tells of an odd thing that happened this past summer: A small and singular cloud appeared overhead and drifted on the breeze. Out on the sidewalk, everyone froze and gazed upwards at the strange and wandering thing. One parched pedestrian squinted up and said, "Is that where rain comes from?" Elizabeth is teaching part-time at El Camino College and piecing together other teaching and tutoring jobs. Meanwhile, she's appeared in the audiences of several TV shows where she gets paid for sitting there as her enthusiastic and well-dressed self. 

Brendan and his wife, Jodi, continue to enjoy Grand Rapids where he is an investment advisor for a bank and she a research grants supervisor for a hospital. Last month, they hosted a spectacular Thanksgiving dinner that couldn't be beat. The Lions won. The dogs behaved. And get this, even Sue behaved. And for several glorious hours, there was nary a whisper of that orange dude. The cornbread stuffing and pumpkin pie had hints of that hideous hue, but that's as far as it went.

This whole election thing has been hard on Sue. Our local prosecutor, who lost her election, refused to press charges against Sue for toilet papering a nearby yard. Our Trumpish neighbors had failed to remove their yard sign after their victory, and well, a certain someone in her own way tried to persuade them that maybe they should. After the election, she went upstairs to her non-stop quilting with MSNBC blaring at full volume. She has been camped up there ever since. Life might be getting back to "normal", although random and shrill cuss words still resound from above. 

I still attend a writers group which prompts me to pump stories onto my blog. It turns out that my most popular blog essay is the one about Pierre and Fatso, two dangling skin tags rooted in my left armpit. From the standpoint of author reputation, this is not a good sign. So I started producing podcasts from my bedroom closet, but I sound like a gagged bureaucrat reading an IRS manual. I'm starting to rethink this whole writing thing. I still stand at the helm of the wonderful infant adoption program at Catholic Human Services. I shall guide the ship until December 31, 2017.

Oh, 2016. I wake up now to your winter mornings and peer through eavesdropping icicles outside my bedroom window. I wonder in my grogginess if I've just run like a fugitive through a recurring nightmare. But while the coffee is brewing, I turn on MSNBC and the blazing orange of our new reality is confirmed. But never mind. I turn off the TV. I need to gas up the snow blower. Besides, there's a scratching at the door. 










Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Trump's Head is a Skin Tag

While all the world is pondering Donald J. Trump, I ponder the skin tag. Unlike Mr. Trump, skin tags are benign. Like Mr. Trump, they're fascinating. Skin tags can be slightly wrinkled and irregular, flesh-colored or light brown, and hang from the skin by a small stalk. Some may be as large as a big grape. In very rare cases, they can take on a strange orange hue and protrude upward from the necks of bankrupt casino moguls. As such, they resemble grotesque jack-o-lanterns. Removal of typical skin tags usually involves freezing or scissors. Removal of the very rare kind requires a guillotine.

My skin tag pondering is no accident. Some years ago two of them emerged in my left armpit and have been passengers in semi-hibernation ever since. They are meek and unassuming like never-used spices at the back of a kitchen cabinet. There they sit, but really, who cares. They are like fraternal twins, dangling from threads like punching bags, just hanging out without any agenda.

I often spy my boys when showering or changing my shirt. It had been a tender moment when my wife first happened upon them. Her discovery was, shall we say, a real mood changer. "Oh, my God!" she gasped. "What are those! You have leprosy!"

Note all the ridicule Trump has endured over the massive noodle nest on top of his head.  The guy looks like a greaser from Grease but without the grease. No matter, The Donald stands his ground and refuses to hack away at that horrendous hedge. In the same vein, you would think that that repulsive and intimate unveiling of my hideous growths might cause me to scramble for the scissors.

But my little guys have grown on me. Ashamed to admit it, but I named them: Pierre and Fatso. The littler one, the tubular dude with a crimson glow, the one with that certain "je ne sais qua"? That's Pierre. The sack-like and yellow fellow who looks like a cross between a whoopee cushion and the oozing thing in the horror film, The Blob? That's Fatso.

You don't just anesthetize your little buddies and then snip them away like so many toenails. Besides, my wife has evolved from revulsion to acceptance to downright hospitality. She might say, "C'mon, honey, give me a peak of Pierre and Fatso."

At my father's memorial service, the first line in my eulogy was, "I am told I have nice hair." I went on to talk about Dad's qualities (including his nice hair) that I inherited or have at least tried to emulate. In his last years, as weakness and dementia took over, he lived with us and I was his caregiver. I fed him, clothed him, and every few days, gave him a shower. He would step shivering and naked into the stall, and holding onto a handicap bar for support, the expanse of his back faced me dead on.

And what a spectacular sight that was. A hundred skin tags, moles, blemishes, pimples, warts, and other mysterious spots freckled his skin from neck to waist. It was like gazing up at the starry skies on a cloudless and moonless night. My sister, when first beholding Dad's back, said she was tempted to draw lines between the spots to create a map of well-known constellations. Thus far I haven't broken out in full blown skin anomalies, but I could have as easily begun my eulogy with, "I have skin tags, just like my dad."

Feel free to destroy or co-habitate with your own skin growths as you see fit. But let me be very clear: I do not, as yet, condone the use of a guillotine to eliminate Donald Trump's orange protrusion. I leave that to the left-leaning mob and the United States Senate. A massive American minority sees this bizarre growth as something regal and benign, like a fat French king living in Versailles. Time will tell if his name should be Pierre or something horribly misdiagnosed in need of a scalpel.




Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Dear Diary: Feeling Trumped

Dear Diary,

It's been awhile. It's not that I don't think about you. But I've been immersed in American politics like a mosquito encased in amber. You probably haven't heard about the election. But why would you? There you are in your eternal and digital universe, waiting like a date for me to tap on your front door. Thank you for being there, even though I show up as often as a Perseid meteor shower.

Anyway, the election. If you're interested in what happened, just get on the Internet, and google... Oh wait, that's right, you don't know the Internet. Diary, I'm not sure how to break this to you, but, well, I am not God. Your universe is more than me. The Internet is God, well, your god anyway. It's how you came to be. It's how you sustain existence. You can't see it, you can't feel it, and you can't smell it. You are part of it and it is all of you. Everything that is known, except for the human soul, is right there. You should see a "Search" button nearby. Go ahead and click it. If you want to know everything about mosquitos, for example, click on "Search", and type in the word. Welcome to your new and true universe.

But Diary, this entry is about me, not you. (And even though I am not your God, I'm still a nice guy, a tremendous guy, a big league guy. Trust me.)  I won't bother telling you all about the election because you can find out for yourself. The easiest way, and please forgive the language, is to google: "OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!"

I'll give you a few seconds for instantaneous digital digestion...

See what's happened? It's all there. Yes, Donald J. Trump, the bankrupt casino mogul with zero experience is the next President of the United States. He is beloved by racists. The Ku Klux Klan is holding a parade. He hasn't read a book in forty years. He admires dictators. He brags about his sexual assaults on women. See that loud bully on the playground humiliating that boy in a wheelchair? That's him.

Like I said, I have been encased in an amber tomb. But yesterday when I saw a political cartoon, I began my escape. It showed Trump taking the oath of office, but instead of raising his right hand, he takes the oath with his left hand in the Bible and with the great swath of his yellow hair rising erect and hand-like on the right side of his skull.

I clicked off MSNBC and slammed my laptop shut. I decided then and there to confide in you. Oh, Diary, it is impossible to reconcile that impending hairy oath with the solemnity of all that's at stake. This is why thousands now crowd the streets in protest.

A friendly neighbor of mine, desperate and hopeless, called and said, "I am so upset. What can we do about this?" I was very ready with a response: "Scream! Scream to amplify the deafening volume of your pain! Unleash this first surge of disbelief and anger in all its lawful forms! And when this wave of chaos fades, create pathways with a clearer mind and a healing heart. And we will rally in millions strong when the inevitable impeachment comes."

She paused, but said the reason she called was to ask that I keep my dog out of her yard. There were piles of his dog shit everywhere.

Life goes on, I suppose, dog shit and all. One notable politician commented that his favorite day in American history was not the inauguration of George Washington, or the surrenders of Germany or Japan, or the day Martin Luther King gave his famous speech on the Washington Mall. He said his favorite was the morning after Abraham Lincoln died. You see, the sun rose again.

But Lincoln was killed after the Civil War ended. These days the sun rises but feels muted. It feels like America has quaked and split into a divide the depth and width of the Grand Canyon. My own street feels like enemy territory, where Trump yard signs trumpet almost audible and vile messages into the air. These are my neighbors! I shall let my dog roam free.

When I was a young boy in the late 1950s, my family lived in Jim Crow Atlanta. One day when my friend, Phillip, and I were meandering through our neighborhood, we spotted a young black man walking down a sidewalk. We scampered to a position on top of a rise a safe distance away. And on the count of three, we yelled at the top of our lungs, "HEY NIGGER!" The man froze for a moment, saw us crouched on the hill, shook his head, and continued on his way.

My dear Diary, I am ashamed of what I did and the poison that propelled my seven year-old self to act that way. My parents never taught me to hate, but my Southern culture sure did. I'll never forget it. But I wonder whether the man forgot or as the years passed if he ever thought about that ugly moment. Probably not. I would guess it was but one of thousands of racist lashes that tore apart his life.

In that world, Phillip and I felt we had "permission" to behave as we did. That permission over the decades went semi-underground, it became politically incorrect, but the poison simmered and still struck victims. And now? Now Mr. Trump has granted renewed permission slips, so to speak, and we are seeing sanctioned insults in renewed force across the land. Bigotry is finding a new momentum.

I know, Diary. Who am I to care? I mean, just look at me on a Sunday as I lounge on my Lazy Boy, cracking open pistachios, watching the Lions game with a laptop on my lap, perusing my Facebook friends, and checking my investments during commercials.

I am not a minority, not disabled, not poor, not female, not a refugee, not gay, and not Muslim. These targeted people, the majority of people in the country, have every reason to be afraid. But why am I, privileged and white, also afraid?

The shame I feel now for that ugly incident in 1958 shows me. Poison spilled out and I violated him. And against a sacred trust, I also violated myself. I violated the community, and I violated all of humanity. Yes, I was only seven years-old in a Jim Crow world, but children today are treated to the same poisoned candy by our new Role Model In Chief.

This, dear Diary, is why I grieve. It's this rupture of poison. You will come to know the Internet, your new-found God, but be careful to separate fact from fiction. There's much poison there, too. In my universe, there's something present, eternally present within our being. I can't see it and I can't smell it. I am part of it, and it is all of me. But now, suddenly, I can hear it and I can feel it.


















Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Apollo 11 Lands in Ankara

On July 20, 1969, while Michael Collins piloted Apollo 11's command module, Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin took small steps on the surface of the moon. Meanwhile, bouncers outside the Hofbrau Haus in Munich violently heaved in a great leap my drunken, 17 year-old carcass onto the cobblestones outside. They were so impressed that I had tried to smuggle out a souvenir, one-liter stein, they felt it right that my face wind up in gutter water.

Two comrades and I had hitchhiked across Europe in July with nary a thought to the impending history in the heavens. Our July was filled with come-what-may adventures and an eye to surviving on five bucks a day. We were oblivious to three other human beings who were rocketing a quarter million miles away and mesmerizing earthly multitudes with their ultimate pioneering adventure in survival.

Home was Ankara, Turkey, where our fathers were employed. We attended George C. Marshall Regional High School in a U.S. military enclave where American citizens could find shopping, a snack bar, tennis courts, and refuge from Turkish society. Some 350 American students attended the high school of which about a quarter resided in dormitories whose families lived elsewhere in the Middle East.

Each school morning, a fleet of blue school buses collected kids, like myself, who lived in several Ankara neighborhoods, and delivered us through the checkpoint at the base and to the front doors of George C. Marshall. Once inside, you might never think that the school was in a foreign country, unless, that is, you ignored the Turkish janitors and kitchen staff and never looked out the windows to see the sprawling Anatolian terrain and the minarets that spiked the cityscape beyond the security fences.

When I returned from Germany to Ankara with a fresh treasure of memories, I looked forward to my senior year. There were friends who would be returning to the dorms and there is that unique pride in feeling like a top dog senior in high school. And it was the best of times to be a long-haired American youth, what with anti-war and civil rights demonstrations raging at home, with sixties rock blaring through our souls, and with great quantities of hashish found accessible down dangerous Turkish alleyways.  To come of age as a radicalized American teen living in a Middle Eastern capital with all its intrigues, to stand together with friends against those wobbling pillars of injustice, and to become steeped in it all by that delicious drug, well, it was a fine time to be a senior. Even though we lived half way around the world, as self-assigned members of Woodstock Nation, we felt a part of something greater in the fall of 1969.

Meanwhile, from September 29 to November 5, those shining American heroes, Armstrong, Aldrin, and Collins, set out on a side trip, dubbed The Giant Leap - Apollo 11 Presidential Goodwill Tour. They were the messiahs of the age and the great mass of Earth's occupants could now gaze up into the the night sky and feel a new kinship with that silver moon rising. Frenzied throngs of thousands swarmed them in 27 cities in 24 countries in 45 days. Speech after speech and parade after parade, some 100 million people saw them.

So it was that the astronauts landed in Ankara, Turkey, on October 20, 1969. The next morning, in George C. Marshall High School, as homerooms were convened for attendance, this message came down from on high: Apollo 11's three astronauts would be appearing for an assembly that afternoon in our very own high school gym.

Oh, mother of moons! Teachers and students alike, we were a quivering mass of golden expectancy. Classroom work be damned that morning as suddenly it felt like a day off. Teachers tried to manage the anticipation. The hallways buzzed between bells. The masses had greeted the astronauts in great public assemblies of chaos, but we would have them here in our intimate little gym, all to ourselves, live and in color on floor and bleachers. Just mere meters away: Neil Armstrong! The first man on the moon!

But in two hours, it all came crashing down. The assistant principal came across the intercom during third period at around 10:30 and spoke: "I regret to announce that the astronauts will not be attending an assembly today. Their schedule won't permit..." blah, blah, blah. There were gasps and spans of silence and angry shouts at those talking boxes over classroom doors. It was stunning. And kids were pissed off.

A lot of families considered Turkey a "hardship post" and tried to replicate their experience in Turkey as closely as possible to the American scene back home. The American bowling alley, movie theater, snack bar, and commissaries were very popular haunts. I imagine an appearance by the astronauts would have given them a much needed jolt in American pride and connection to all things United States.

We, who fancied ourselves as counter-cultural warriors, took a more jaundiced view. I was in awe by NASA's herculean achievement. We all were. But I have always felt that stabbing the moon's surface with an American flag, and in so doing somehow claiming it, reflected the apex of absurdity. I admired the sentiment in "one giant leap for mankind" while an amused universe looked on. I wanted to meet Neil Armstrong as much as the next kid, and I was angry too, Woodstock Nation or no. I'm sure the reason the heroes couldn't come was legitimate, but you don't tell hundreds of kids they won a free trip to the moon, allow the wonder to sink in, and then announce it was all a mistake. Cruel and unusual punishment.

I was pissed off by the announcement and I was still pissed off during lunch in the cafeteria along with my still pissed off friends. My comrade, Bill, and I walked into the corridor out the cafeteria door and agreed that something had to be done to protest. I pictured the student sit-in strikes erupting across the U.S. and looked down the hall at the subdued students milling around. It was then that I lowered my butt to the floor and sat back against the wall. "I refuse to go to class," I said. Bill understood and sat next to me on my left. We became a protest of two.

In that time and place, it was an odd thing to do, to just sit there, and soon our senior classmates wandered by and wondered why. "We protest," we said. In a matter of minutes we were joined on the floor by a dozen more. And like a brush fire spreading the word, we were joined by ranks of juniors, sophomores, and freshmen. By the time the bell beckoned us to fifth hour class, the sit-in filled the hall that ran from the cafeteria to the lobby, filled the lobby, and ran a ways down the two hallways that branched from there. No one paid heed to the fifth-hour tardy bells as some 280 students sat flat on their asses in strike. Meanwhile, some seventy kids remained obedient and sat in their largely vacant classrooms.

The principal was away at meetings for the day, so the task of managing the crisis was left to his assistant. But he was no match for the dogged determination of the protesters. At first, he came out of his office with threats of suspension and phone calls to parents, but the throng erupted in jeers and raised their hands in peace signs and clenched fists. Another time, he came out and asked, "What are you protesting," to which senior comrade Rod rose and shouted, "We're protesting your stupidity!" This brought on long, boisterous acclaim, the assistant stood speechless for a moment and again retreated to his office.

Before long, a committee of students was chosen, of which I was one, and was invited to powwow with the assistant in his office to problem solve. I don't remember what was said, but I do recall feeling very proud and connected with my brethren in the larger cause. No solutions were presented that were accepted, and in time, we returned to the floor. The bells for sixth hour came and went with the sit-down strike holding its own.

And up the walkway approaching the front doors, sauntered our principal, the highest authority, Mr. Cook. He had not been informed of these goings-on, and walked straight into the lobby, came to a halt, and slowly gazed across the congregation with a look I'll never forget. Forgive me, but he looked as one looks when one has shit one's pants. And with a tight-lipped grimace, he tiptoed through the throng and scampered into his office as fast as he could go.

Mr. Cook got busy. He hand-picked a few students and together they huddled behind closed doors. Meanwhile, we sit-downers were giddy with success, success at least in shutting down the school. We were proud of ourselves, and I felt a kinship with the student powers back home in the States. It was through their protests that we drew inspiration. Of course, our "victory", if you can call it that, was a very small potato compared to the righteous and seismic struggles being fought at Berkeley and other campuses across America.

But our fight on that Tuesday in October was very real to us. If there was a common feeling among us all, sitting there and packed tight in those halls, shoulder to shoulder, knee to knee, two hundred and eighty strong... that feeling was J-O-Y. It's amazing how fears or assumptions about others dissolve away when a common and higher calling cements the bonds.

We expected to wait out the clock until the three o'clock dismissal bell sounded our release . But at about two, Mr. Cook emerged, walked around the front doors to face us, and delivered this simple message in expressionless, stone cold words: School buses were on their way to the school to transport us to the Marmara Hotel where the astronauts were staying. The astronauts would be there to greet us.

Well. You would have thought Lindberg had just crossed the Atlantic or the American hockey team had just defeated Russia at the 1980 Winter Olympics. Such sweet jubilation. And in minutes, some twenty five beautifully blue busses rolled up in front of George C. Marshall High School.

I saw Collins first and got to shake hands and congratulate Aldrin. Kids sat on each others' shoulders and formed swarms around the men, reaching for precious handshakes. The astronauts were gracious and smiling, if looking somewhat exhausted. They had not expected this, another throng of adoring fans, this time in their hotel parking lot. In all the chaos, I never caught a glimpse of Neil Armstrong. But it didn't matter. Hundreds of others did. I was most satisfied by watching. Joy multiplied by two hundred and eighty.

It seems the whole thing was over in twenty minutes. The astronauts walked back to the hotel. We boarded our buses to return home to our various Ankara neighborhoods. And as my bus idled in wait, one young American got on, found a seat, and looked out his window at the dispersing crowd. With a look of quiet disbelief, he said to no one, "I just met the first man on the moon."

    

Monday, April 11, 2016

Impasse at Fort Matanzas



Fishing on Florida's Intercostal Waterway and fishing in a box of chocolates have one thing in common: you never know what you're going to get. As a Michigan boy, I know my bass, my blue gill, my northern pike, my trout, and I have a basic feel for their respective habitats. But when you cast chunks of shrimp off the bank of an estuary, that’s part of the Matanzas River, that’s part of the Intercostal Waterway, that runs parallel to Florida's Atlantic coast, well, ignorant Michigan boys, like me, have no idea what lurks below.

When the beast grabbed hold, I was daydreaming about mass murder. And why wouldn't I?  After all, Fort Matanzas stood sentinel across the estuary there. I knew all about the fort. When we visited here some years prior, my wife and I took the short ferry over to this national historical site and stood where cannon four hundred and fifty years ago delivered amazingly accurate blows onto Spain’s enemies.

I wondered how the Spaniards gathered seafood in these waters. But then again, they probably didn't. They had slaves do their dirty work, indigenous people who had known the whereabouts and habits of the fishery there at the Matanzas Inlet for hundreds of years. The Spanish, in the names of Jesus Christ and The Crown, were masters at committing atrocities against others. They forced others to gather oysters in their shells.

So there I was on this February afternoon, standing on that shelly shore, casting shrimp baits twenty yards out, while imagining cannon blasts and Spanish soldiers sweating and swatting at mosquitoes. After an hour, I had fed a school of small fish (species unknown) with about fifteen whole shrimps offered in small, bite-size pieces. Either the little bastards had an uncanny ability to peck the bait from around the hook, or I had no skill at setting the barb. Both, probably. But it made for a lovely if somewhat labor-intensive time, all that re-baiting and donating.  After all, here was a warm winter sun with Fort Matanzas across the way, precious surroundings for a refugee from the bitter north. I reloaded and cast again.

The monster hit. My reel seethed as the line peeled out and my rod arched in protest. I yelled, "Whoa!" to no one around, and without any breath, my eyebrows shot up to my scalp. Left to right, right to left, outward to in, and inward to out, the leviathan wandered to and fro. When it swam in, I reeled in the slack, and when it swam out, the line gave way again. I pictured a gigantic and grinning grouper that chuckled at the "challenge" of out-dueling a Michigan rig more accustomed to pestering blue gills on their spawning beds.

This rivaled the short-lived fight my mother had had in Canada. When I was twelve, my family took a vacation to a cottage on the northern shore of Lake Erie in Ontario. One afternoon, we went fishing a ways inland, and in a small rented boat, we rowed through lanes in a deep marsh until we stopped at a clearing populated by hundreds of dragonflies. I affixed a night crawler to my mother’s hook and she let it drop straight down over the side where she sat.

Mom was by no means a great fan of fishing. She was a life master at duplicate bridge, had recently become an aficionado of French cooking, and was a well-schooled classical pianist. But she was willing to get her hands dirty and try new things, if not threading a worm on a hook. Ever the trooper, she faced out from her boat bench, a knee on each side, and watched her bobber a few feet away.

And then, as in a movie of horrors, she shrieked. Her rod tip dove down from a violent strike, and in the next instant, an enormous northern pike rose on the other side of the boat, and soared two feet into the air with the crawler draped on its cheek. And in a great watery explosion, it crashed back down, broke the line, and vanished. My mother never saw it. It had swum under the boat with its violent leap happening behind her. She turned to me uttlery still. I had never before seen that expression on her face, and I never saw it again, that vacant and shocked gape as though she had just seen a ghost.

Mom's "fight" lasted all of five seconds. But there in the shadow of Fort Matanzas, we fought on, my fish and I. Well, at least I alone fought. The fish, it seems, just bided its time, left to right, right to left, outward to in, and inward to out. Truth be told, the beast kind of scared me. If I could bring him in, how would my delicate Michigan fingers manage the head and body of a creature of such apparent mass? Surely it would have teeth like needles and gills and fins with edges as sharp as razors. Maybe it was a shark, intent in its angry surrender to make of me a mini-massacre, to bite a chunk out of my arm in retaliation. No, I would be satisfied just to see it, to name it, and from a safe distance to get a picture of it. There was no one near to witness the event, except for the tourists who perched along the parapets of Fort Matanzas.

A quarter mile away, the Matanzas River meets the Atlantic Ocean at an inlet. It's not really a river, but bulges and recedes with the ebb and flow of the tides. "Matanzas" in Spanish means "massacre" and the Matanzas Inlet gets its name from the massacre that occurred there in 1565. To gain religious freedom, hundreds of French Protestants had tried to settle that country south of St. Augustine, but King Phillip of Spain, the first interloper, would have none of it. A Spanish captain sailed to Florida with orders to uproot and murder the French, those non-Catholic infidels, and when two hundred of them were captured on the inlet beach, their executions were pronounced.

But then, the history goes, the murders were halted by a kindly attendant priest who requested that the Catholics among the French be spared. But only twelve of the two hundred pledged an allegiance to the Pope, while the rest maintained their theological integrity and were summarily slaughtered like sheep.

Were I standing there on the beach, I may have been inclined to exhibit a transformation of heart, to express a new-found love for the Pope, but with a hand behind my back, fingers crossed. On second thought, the conquerors may have relegated me to wading the shallows in bare feet to search for oysters with bare fingers. And those mosquitoes! Maybe those one hundred and eighty eight who refused to convert knew something more, and preferred a quick death to a slow death by gradual blood-letting.

One thing you can say about those souls who inhabited the New World: they were patient. For thousands of years, the natives lived according to the clock of nature. You could not assert your will over the timetable for harvest. The Spanish invaders arrived on boats carried by slow breezes. They waited months for messages. But, it must be said, their bloodthirsty quest for gold surely ratcheted up their ambitions and forced the issue.

As my fish and I labored against each other, I could not, as it were, sense a natural timetable for this harvest. No, my bloodthirsty quest for gold ratcheted my ambition and forced the issue. Therefore, to instill more control and in the tiniest of clockwise adjustments, I tightened the drag on my reel, when... snap! Like my mother's fishing pole before me, my rod was suddenly freed from its cargo and stood straight out with its limp line lying weightless on the surface.

I'll never know what kind of fish had its way that day. To find out, I told my tale to the kid at the bait shop, but he just shrugged and listed off about ten different species that grow large in those inner waters. Here was another pink Yankee who lost a fish. Was he going to buy something or not?

Before gathering my gear and heading back, I crouched down at the water's edge to wash my hands of bait residue. There was no wind and the water was calm. The last tourists of the day had been ferried back to the landing and Fort Matanzas stood alone in fading light. I noticed out a short distance a ripple forming, and saw that it was the snout of a green sea turtle coming up for air. His head and the spine of his shell broke the surface, and he held there staring at me. I acknowledged him with a nod, and just like that, down he went, gone to further reaches of the estuary. 

The turtle may encounter my fish in its intercostal travels, and consider, the way turtles might consider, the odd sight of a hook impaled in a lip. But there is nothing new in this: His ancestors have encountered peculiar things over the centuries, of cannon blasts, and severed heads, and foreign legs among oyster beds.